I woke up on Tuesday morning to more bleeding. This time it was red. The shock of seeing it was so overwhelming, all I could do for the first hour and a half afterwards was cry.
I called the Maternity Unit, they couldn’t help me as I am less than 12 weeks. I called the EPU (Early Pregnancy Unit) and explained it to them and they asked me to monitor it and call them back in a few hours.
In the meantime I was sent off to bed by Matt and told to stay there and do nothing. That’s where I stayed for 3 and a half days. When Matt called back the EPU for me, he told them the “red” bleeding had stopped, but explained that I was going out of my mind with worry. They told us that the earliest they could get us in for a scan would be Friday at 11.30am. That was 3 whole days away! Commence the stress and worry.
Wednesday and Thursday passed in a bit of a blur. The “fresh” bleeding had stopped but there was still evidence that things weren’t “normal”. I stayed in bed in the hope that if it was something bad, that I was doing the best thing by having total bedrest.
Thursday night, I barely slept. I had so many things going through my mind about the pending scan at 11.30am. As I drifted in and out of sleep, I woke at 5.00am with a total feeling of sickness. Not morning sickness… sickness from sheer fear of what the scan might tell us.
This morning finally arrived and we went to the hospital. I was called in 15 minutes before my appointment time arrived, which was good really as it gave me less time to sit and worry myself even more.
I was asked to lay on the bed. The sonographer asked a few questions about what had happened and then squirted the gel onto my belly. The next few seconds were just the absolute worse. I was waiting for a “Sorry…..” (I can’t even say the rest of that sentence) when she all of a sudden said “Baby is fine”, then “And there’s the heartbeat”. She told me she would just get a clear picture on the screen so I could see. As soon as she said that Matt leapt up from his seat and came over the study the screen. It was quite amazing as to how much the baby has grown in just 2 weeks and 2 days. It was 5.5mm and it’s now 16.8mm. Still incredibly tiny, but it’s grown more than 3 times in 2 weeks. Amazing!
We came home smiling. I feel much better but decided to rest as what with no sleep and pregnancy tiredness kicking in big time anyway, I felt I needed to just sit and think about nothing. I think it has done some good.
This weekend will be a quiet one. I’ll be taking it easy and hopefully the rest of the “bleeding” will subside. At least I can look forward to things again now. I don’t feel like life is on hold awaiting some bad news.
